Never once...

     Sunday morning we got up to go to church again, and this time I didn't have any resistance. I was ready to go even though I just shuffled all the way to the car and then to the door of service.
   
     That Sunday, worship included a song that our church has probably been singing for the last 6 months or so by Matt Redman called "Never Once":

Standing on this mountaintop

Looking just how far weve come

Knowing that for every step

You were with us

Kneeling on this battle ground

Seeing just how much Youve done

Knowing every victory

Was Your power in us

Scars and struggles on the way

But with joy our hearts can say

Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone

Never once did You leave us on our own

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Kneeling on this battle ground

Seeing just how much Youve done

Knowing every victory

Was Your power in us

Scars and struggles on the way

But with joy our hearts can say

Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone

Never once did You leave us on our own

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Scars and struggles on the way

But with joy our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone

Carried by Your constant grace

Held within Your perfect peace

Never once, no, we never walk alone

Never once did we ever walk alone

Never once did You leave us on our own

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Every step we are breathing in Your grace

Evermore we'll be breathing out Your praise

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

You are faithful, God, You are faithful

     The italic fonts are to highlight the words that really spoke to me as I cried that morning. I pretty much always cry when I go to church because I am surrounded by believers and can physically feel the presence of our God around me. Its an amazing, amazing thing and it brings me so much comfort. 

      This song particularly spoke to me because it repeats the phrase over and over, "You are faithful." I have been so incredibly blessed to be surrounded by family and friends who have lifted Alex and I up in prayer over, and over, and over, and over again. I can tell you without a doubt that this is the only reason that we have been able to cope in the way that we have. I know that I will cling to the promise of God's faithfulness, and I know that one day we will have our family here on Earth and eventually we will be restored with Kaitlyn in heaven.