What now?

9.20.13

     As we pulled out of the hospital parking lot, Alex looked at me and said, "What now?" Should we go straight home... Was I ready for that?

     I had my discharge prescriptions in hand and we decided to take those to Walgreens before going to the house. We drove around for probably an hour before finally making it back to the house, and it was really hard for me to come in the door. I sat in the car for a few minutes, and finally walked in through the garage like I had anticipated doing with Kaitlyn for the past 8 months.

      That afternoon was a flurry of family and naps. I laid down on the our bed with an ice pack across my incision, and my cousins, best friend, and sister-in-law joined me in the bedroom between naps. My sweet family surrounded me and asked if there was anything they could do, which of course there wasn't.

       Alex and I had one more conversation with our pastor about what was coming the next day, and as the sun began to set everyone started to leave for the evening. I'm not really sure how I did it, but I managed to sleep somewhat decently that night. I know I cried myself to sleep, but at least I was finally at home with my husband next to me and my dog on the other side. I dreaded what was coming the next day, but I tried to push it out of my mind as I fell asleep.